Stay with me

2005-12-03T02:05:00.000+08:00

pass few weeks has been quite hectic for me. kinda packed but its all cool. all except this thing we people call slacking. aint doing much work nor studying. it has always been like this. eversince the day i was introduced to education. anyway. just wanna do a rather quick post. wanna sleep really soon. so. as i was saying. i practically come home around 8 9+. on occasions 10. monday's would be 11+ 12 cause of MPS. MPS has become a chore man. but i try to take it on the positive side. helping people. expanding general knowledge. improving my english. knowing people (though they're all MUCH MUCH older =X). nevertheless. mondays are cool =). and today. as in friday not saturday. had lab in the morning till 12. since i have no csas lesson and pipc2 lessons today. i'm left with a 4-5 lecture. so i was thinking. nah. i actually felt quite bad ya know. haha. even thought of taking 34 there just to accompany. anyways. went home early. relax with the computer a bit before taking a "long-time-haven't-taken" nap till bout 9+? =X. awefully long for a nap. haha. its been ages since im able to do such thing. was rather tired i guess. ok. im starting to stone already. so i think i'll stop here. cant put anymore down. low power lahz. haha.

things turned out really well. and i'm glad. patiently waits for female =D.

2005-11-19T18:37:00.000+08:00

I've updated 2 entries below. Be Warned. Its long. LOL. oh ya. 1 more thing. my birthday date is on my blog lehz. why didn't you see? =P. so i didn't "cheat" your feelings. HAHAHHA!!!! =PpP. and anyways. you know what you did =D.

let me know when you're ready........

2005-11-19T18:15:00.000+08:00

Round 2!!

November - School days

My. Time. Table. SUCKS!! Let me Reiterate. S.U.C.K.S. Spell it with me. Go ahead. Here's how it is. Enjoy laughing at me. while you can. =)

Monday - 10am to 5pm
Tuesday - 9am to 4pm
Wednesday - 9am to 8pm!!!!
Thursday - 9am to 6pm
Friday - 9am to 6pm

I swear wednesday thursday and friday looks AWEFULLY similiar. i calculated a total of 34 or 35 hours excluding breaks of study. -_-''. Looks like shit. HOWEVER!!!! i found out an important thing. my cds (cross-disciplinary subject) lecture no more. all tutorials and online reading. so. we can cancel out wed being till 8. it becomes 9am to 3pm. my lab days are on wednesdays and fridays. wednesdays i have 2 labs. 3 hours each. thats why its 9am to 3pm. and guess what. the labs are not always on. they are alternating. which means. on some weds it could be 9am to 12pm OR 12pm to 3pm OR 9am to 3pm OR NONE AT ALL!!! like the last wed. i was sleeping at home. till 2pm. =). as for fridays. my lab is from 9am to 12pm. similiarly. its alternating. go figure. here's a revamped timetable ;)

Monday - 10am to 5pm
Tuesday - 9am to 4pm
Wednesday - 9am to 3pm OR 9am to 12pm OR 12pm to 3pm OR NONE
Thursday - 9am to 6pm
Friday - 9am to 6pm OR 12pm to 6pm

AHhhh. much better. =D.

2005-11-19T17:42:00.000+08:00

Ok..I haven't blogged for almost 2 months already..alot of things had happened..alot has changed..so since i'm bored now..i'm gonna do some touch up if possible and try to update as much as possible..here we go..

September - After my birthday

Work Work Work..at least that was what i remembered..

October - Last month of working

Worked through out. I Think. Nothing much happened till the last few days of my working days. One of my colleague "booked" me 2 weeks before hand to bring me out to lunch. haha. Treat me eat Pastamania. It was a Friday i think. So they thought it was my last day but i went back on Monday. Monday. The last day. Was bout 4. The big boss's wife asked a favor of me. Though it wasn't my job but they were in need of the despatch team but all of them were unavailable. She asked me to bring the affidavit (which is a court document regarding some swearing i think) to DBS building at 6 Shenton Way to get it signed by someone. 6 Shenton Way !??!?!?! Where the hell is that. Didn't know shit. Anyways. the document was not under her case. It was rather someone elses one. So i'm thinking that someone else went through to the boss's wife just to get me to do this stuff. Otherwise i don't think i'm suppose to do such stuff. Well. I was thinking. Its experience and hell. I could get to know Singapore area better. LOL. So i went to check the directory and made my way down to the area. Frankly i felt that. i may be wrong here. but i felt it was quite irresponsible. i mean. why last minute? get what i mean? blah. anyways. she told me it was DBS tower 1. went in didnt know that the lift only went to certain stories. saw wrongly. ended up going all the way up to 40+ story and back down again. -_-'''. finally made it to the 3rd story. searched around for the person. the freaking area had no intercom or reception. how on earth am i suppose to find her? had to ask for help. the guy told me there wasn't such a person there. WTF~!. called back to reconfirm whether it was tower 1. she said it is tower 1. then i explained. she then went to check. it was freaking tower 2. -_-'''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''. had to rush there get it signed and get back. i went there by mrt btw. 1 stop only. then my colleague asked me to talk a cab back. it aint easy getting a cab around that area so i used the train and walked swiftly back. i remembered feeling scorthed man. she wanted to use the company to cover my transport. how much can a trip up and down. single mrt trip be? so no point. aint ex. the receptionist. Shirley got me a farewell gift. another colleague also got me one. was so nice of them. had dinner with 2 other of my colleagues. Cynthia and Fauziah. Pizza Hut at centre point i think. Didn't go as well but was better later on. She drove me to doby ghaut mrt station. took train back from there. reached home. was talking to my mom in my room. she told me the big boss called her. told her that he didnt knew it was my last day. he complimented me and said that i could come back again if i wanted to. it felt good. haha. well. think thats all i can recall. wahaha. bad memory =X.

2005-09-24T02:44:00.000+08:00

Part II

I think it was on the Saturday, was in the car with my family to go lunch. My mom called this company and guess what, she got me a job in like 5 minutes ?!? Well, she has very close relationship with this company and their straight away took me in without interview or whatsoever. But i've meet some of the people there including the big boss there who is a lawyer. They came over the the place before for Chinese New Year, really nice people. The company's a law firm by the way. As usual, i was procrastinating and dreading to go but then it all turned out really well. The firm has about 30-40 staff, made up of secretries and lawyers, all of which are really nice. And the workplace is really condusive, fabulous place. The workload is alright, keeps me busy, helps me pass time. Sometimes it's quite free. Overall, i think its my favourtie place to work i think. Really cool. Get to learn law stuff and procedures. Awesome. And i'm working in a "more female compared to male" environment. wahahha. Don't get wrong ideas man. Well, i want to go watch Final Fantasy 7 advent children, muahhaha. Yeah. My sisters and her boyfriend got me this. Crumpler~~ Thanks for the gifts and wishes. Preciate. =)

2005-09-24T02:21:00.000+08:00

I couldn't update on the day that i stated i would, been really busy no time to even come online. haha. Ok. I got a hell lot to update, too much till i kinda feel really lazy to do it. haha. Nevermind. Here goes.

The first week of my holidays was pretty much, pool, gaming and overnight mahjong. Its been basically this, and it rocked. Never slept before 5am everyday that week. I would use the computer or play that dragonforce game and lose track of time. Then when i hear birds chirping i'd know its around 5+am. Would have to literally have to tell drag my ass off the chair and off the system, and rush to the toilet to get ready for bed. Few minutes after lying in bed, i would expect alarm clocks followed by the opening of the door of my parents room. Then i could pretty much hear him walk towards my sister's room and on the lights which would cause a pillar of light to enter the window at the top of the door. Its been either this or overnight mahjong. I would go out to meet my friends for a game of pool till around 12midnight. Then we'd grab some snacks from cheers and walk back to my place. Table open, chairs placed, chips sorted, tiles stacked, snacks at corners of the table and lastly, the 4 hand-itchy players. Vuala~ you got yourselves a noisy bunch and "high" gamblers. Meanwhile, "the rest" -> not interested, will be watching shows on the PC and playing CS on the other. Play till around 2am, gamblers not only hand-itchy but stomach-itchy as well. 67773777. Every overnight mahjong there's bound to be Mac Delivery without fail. Told the operator many times not to ring the door bell, but they proved themselves to be less capable of following instructions. Nyways, played till around 6+ then stopped cause someone needed to go but we still stayed up till around 9+am. Went to the nearby market for breakfast then headed home to give in to my lethargic being. It was pretty fun lahz those nights, lazy to write down every detail. Well this was for taht first week.

2005-09-21T00:09:00.000+08:00

Wanna know what I've doing the past few days eversince i stopped blogging? If no, go ahead a click the [X] at the top right hand of the screen. If yes, ermm............

I'll update tomorrow .. =P.. ps .. been busy .. so i think tomorrow will be much free-er ..

2005-09-12T04:25:00.000+08:00

I used to love this game. Correction. I still do. It was on Sega Saturn but unfortunately, that console of mine can't save shit. -_-''. And for your info, this is a darn long game. So how you expect me to play right? haha. Been hoping for this game to come out on another console eversince, who knows how long man. haha. This game came out on like 1996 ? That was a hellva long time ago. And guess what? Go ahead. I'll give you time to guess.

I'm freaking glad it CAME OUT on ps2. Recently only. Like on the 15 August 2005 ? This rocks lahz. I think they reproduced if because of me. wahahha . They know I want to play it badly and so they fulfiled my wish. muahaha. Been playing this game non-stop whenever I'm at home. I could slouch on the couch for 5 over hours just playing it. hahha. I'm nuts. Yes. =)

2005-09-12T03:43:00.000+08:00

For what it was worth, it was worth all the while. Its something unpredictable but in the end, its right. I hope you have the time of your life.

Its the holidays. Semester exams are over. No more feeling obligated to study. No more slacking with guilt. No more having the need to get up early. No more needing to sleep before 2am. It'll be basically eat, play, relax, sleep and hopefully work. Gonna be really routine right now. =) It'll probably stay that way till i get bored with it and decide to change my daily plans. But until then, I'm gonna enjoy it to the fullest. Tomorrows suppose to be gym, swim, katong laksa, pool then I'll have to go MPS to type letters. Looks like I'm gonna pass on the first one; too lazy to get up. haha. Realized I haven't done alot of things lately. Like the movies? Going to town area? lol. Those urges are escalating really quickly in me. You know, I was thinking. What's the point of people hating each other eh? Why bother wasting time and energy on such pests? Why don't just exterminate them from your memory? Pretend they never existed? *This topic is insignificant, just in case you're wondering whether I'm referring to someone or myself.* Personally i don't hate people. I did feel hateful, but not hateful against a person. Rather their actions. By the way, Thank you once again. It was all I needed so you didn't have to feel bad. =)
Halfway there.

2005-09-03T00:26:00.000+08:00

Hateful yet...

i feel freaking hateful right now. been listening to hateful loud music and man its been pleasing. somehow somethings happened and its really annoying the f**k outta me. but as much as its pissing me off, guilt, sorrow, loneliness seeps into me. mix all those and you get an aqueous solution that is beyond the pH value. makes me wana burst. i would want to put down what really happened and bitch bout everything but to think of it, no thank you. it'll make the situation worst and i don't wana sound like a freaking winer. seriously, the musics really helping me feel more resentful. "on and on and on and on it goes, and as time pass true colours shows. never in my life have i seen someone so oblivious to the damage one has done, so f**king blind."fits perfectly with my mood right now. but in contrast. it suddenly hit me bout a day ago. i realize i'm feeling so deserted. so alone. so deprived. why out of the blue this feeling comes? when it hasnt occurred to me before? because of you? maybe? one person could stir up an entire mess. what power. unbelievable. humans truely hold the gift of destruction. not only are we able to bring chaos to the environment or should i say the world. we're proven more capable. we can exterminate each other. not only physically. but mentally. the mind is such a fragile thing even we humans are so ignorant to the damage we can do to it. maybe i'm just being very critical right now. maybe im just thinking too much. maybe maybe maybe. f**k maybe. why uncertainty? i can't even answer my own question. screw this. there i go again. lets check today's progress. a step closer to mission redneck. woah!! awesome!! soon i'll be able to screw people without feeling guilty. cant wait. oh f**k. who am i kidding. nah i'll pass. i wont fall down there just because of this. =). but you've made an impact on my life. came and tilt it upside down inside out. for good and for worst.

for so many years. for my entire life. i've never felt the urge to get attached. never felt the need to settle down. but now. the scale has tilted to favor the latter. equilibrium has shifted to the needy.

2005-09-01T23:44:00.000+08:00

changed the template.....obviously...not in the mood now to blog nor write my thoughts down...will update when i'm not so moody..

2005-08-17T22:36:00.000+08:00

Yes. The previous post was how i felt that day. Insanity? Maybe.

2005-08-15T00:27:00.000+08:00

A cage. Not long enough in length and width to allow you to stand up straight nor lie down flat. As though it was purposely constructed in that manner for your case. Impregnable bars from the inside. Nothing can be done from the inside. No doors. No Chains. No Shackles. No Lock. No Key. Only way to get out is if someone smashed it from the outside. However, no one will come. The cage is suspended in mid-air, above a deep pitch black hole. A hole of which, is endless. Drop a stone into it, you'll never hear the impact. Whispers coming out from it, terrorizing your mind. You don't know whether its your mind playing tricks or is the hole really drawing you to it. You've lost track of time and space. Lost basically everything. The surrounding is just as dark but is nothing compared to the emptiness of the abyss. It is illuminated by this dim light from the bottom of a door. A door, where there is light, laughter, happiness, joy, love on the other side. But all you could see was the line of light under the door. It taunts you. Haunts you. Tempting you to walk right through it. Again, you can do nothing about it.

2005-08-14T20:58:00.000+08:00

With so much congestion in the mind, so much thoughts, so much uncertainty, so much complications, so much assumptions, so much misconceptions, so much stress......

It all lead to an immacular breakdown. Lead to sorrow. Lead to sadness. Lead to confusion. Lead to pessimism. Lead to moodiness. Lead to emptiness. Lead to losing one's self....

Then insanity comes in....

But dont worry. Rest assure. I won't go through the whole process. Cause I'm already at the last stage...insanity.

2005-08-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

Void .... lost ....

2005-08-09T00:54:00.000+08:00

For now .. i guess i've decided to sit back and see how things go .... I'm really sorry .. am feeling terrible .. cause i made u upset.. never will i ever do it again ... neverr ...

2005-08-08T01:02:00.000+08:00

Second part of the post again .. its always too long ..

Saturday - Boring day ---> Not bad day

Saturday was really boring ... didnt have any plans what so ever .. didnt go back to dunman for speech day .. found out that top student in 'O' level for normal was holly .. thought it'll be dan lin .. pretty weird .. anyways .. pretty much slacked at home whole day except for lunch time with my family .. allen then asked me whether wanna go swim .. then study after that .. so went cc's house with allen and carbison .. swam quite a bit .. did some push ups together .. lol .. walked back to cc's house from his condo .. called in .. pizza hut and kfc .. the operator is damn dumb .. trust me .. landed property got unit got level ?? got storey ?? dumbass !! .. on the receipt put the address then with a #06-18 .. ?!?!? WTH .. since when did terrace houses have a #06-18 !!!! .. i didnt know they build terrace houses on each other .. supposed to study after that .. ended up watching Sin City .. gross show .. but alright .. halfway through it my parents came to fetch me .. sister called me and told me to be home by 11+ ... cause apparently .. my cousin and a family friend was coming over for overnight mahjong .. been quite a while since we've done it .. simply loved those times .. beginning part was alright .. i diao zeng 5 times in a row .. but then i was down 30 bucks after that .. got bao 12 bucks plus .. threw a limit for someone as well .. haha .. but then later on .. luck picked up .. managed to bao the guy who baoed me .. haha but only 4 double .. better than nothing though .. in the end managed to catch up and won 6 bucks .. haha .. my sis won 30+ .. cousin bankrupt .. friend no win no lose .. lol .. played till 7 am .. darnn tired ..

Sunday - Usual

Sunday ... family day .. a usual .. spend time with my family .. went for lunch .. came back supposed to catch up on sleep .. but nope .. as usual .. got distracted .. went for dinner then headed to tm to get some stuff .... after that .. it was as usual = msn, dota , thought of studying but never did ... nothing new ... except me blogging .. =) .. sleeeeeeeeeppppp .. what effect ....

2005-08-08T01:00:00.000+08:00

The frequency of me blogging has dropped from 1-2 per day to 0.3 per day. Why ?
Open internet explorer, go to favourites, click on blogger.com. Few seconds later, blogger's main menu appear. Sign in with username and password. Click create entry then a white rectangular box will appear. Click inside the box and just stare at the blinking black line. Slowly turn into a gargolye, rock hard. Bout a minute later, someone messages with these few letters, "DOTA". That's it. Realizes its really late after the game, rushes to do tutorial. Then shags out. So ... go figure.

hahah .. i realized i've been in at this page for like 2 hours ? 1 hour and a half in game .. the other half staring into mid-air ... silent

Friday - CCN day

8-12 lecture couldn't concentrate ... mostly everyone couldn't ..lecturer decided to end it earlier .. 11.20 .. came out .. people already setting up their stalls .. and quite frankly .. my class kinda sucks ? .. sorry but .. seriously .. it really did ....... anyways ... spent most of my time walking around instead of maning the stall .. in the beginning it wasn't that boring .. but later on .. it slowly started to get really bad ... the weather gets hotter ... my class stall suck ... and partly cause of ... was disappointed .. but i understand .. just got really sian-ed .. as i walked around .. i see some friends every now and then .. they'll go " ehh... why soo sad??" ... for goodness sake I'm NOT SAD !!! can u imagine how many times i had to repeat that .. to the extend whereby i really got pissed .. damn annoying!! f***ing irritating .. soo my close classmate .. unluckily came and ask me when i reached my limit ... sorta took it out on him ... sorry bro .. haha .. but he was fine with it .. he sat with me in front of the library while i just stoned ... was really sian-ed and quite du lan .. soo decided too screw it .. went to find carbison they all at choo's stall .. played with his guitar and keyboard ... made me feel better ... then angeline called .. soo i went to find her at the bus stop .. went interchange to wait for allen they all but we decided to go first cause js reaching raffles already ... concert was really bad in the beginning .. almost fell a sleep somemore .. the wind instrumental area keep going out of tune ... badddd ... but the percussion and chinese ocestral was pretty good .. overall not bad .. went lao pa sa to eat as usual .. then went back home with angeline after that .. ddamn tireed then .. slept ......

2005-08-05T00:14:00.000+08:00

This is a follow up of the second entry.

After i left at 3pm ... went to meet allen .. then headed to tm to meet angeline and hwei fung .. since we were quite early .. went to play pool while waiting for them .. followed them around to look for court shoes .. i pressume that hwei fung needed them for her performance tomorrow .. haha ... went around looking at acessories then headed back home .. was walking on the way home with angeline then i realized i needed to buy stuff ... haha .. soo she followed me to simei east point .. managed to get her into pet safari .. for the first time .. muahahha .. i'm good man .. =X .. cause i bribe lahz .. lol ... it wasn't soo bad right ?? the dogs soo cute also .. =X .. ahhaha .. after i got my stuff .. went through pet safari again .. ahha .. fun ? =X .. wahhaha .. i realized i like playing with the lifts .. hahaha .. open close open close .. one of these days i'll spoil the thing .. lol.. tomorrow's ccn day .. decided not to go with the PS2 game thingy .. so i cancelled it .. let my other classmates man the stall .. lazy .. =X .. wahahha .. ccn day will rock .. it'll cut my timetable by half .. haha .. cause the entire school halfday .. and ...... fridays are the longest for me 8-6 ... soo its cut to 8-12 .. whahahha .. fantasicccc~~ then got a concert after that .. cooool dayyy ...

Thank You .. =)

2005-08-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

I realized i havent been blogging the pass few days ... haha .. bbbbbbcausee...

1. Reach home quite late.
2. Dota with friends after that.
3. Realized haven't done tutorial.
4. Rush to complete and shag out.

Got time to blog ? lol ... anyway .. today i feel completely different from yesterday .. haha .. felt soo sian yesterday .. was stoning almost every 5 mins .. haha .. i could have turned into a gargolye ... today felt soo lifely ... so energetic .. ahha ...

Today's Timetable

9-10am
Organic Chemistry (Make up tutorial)

10-1pm
Free

1-2pm
Organic Chemistry Lecture

2-4pm
Principles of Inorganic Physical Chemistry Lecture

4-5pm
Engineering Mathamatics Lecture

5-6pm
Mass and Energy Balance Lecture

Packed ? lol ... sooo ......

Shane's Version of Today's Timetable

9-10am
Organic Chemistry (Make up tutorial) - Sleeping on my bed. Overslept.

10-1pm
Free - Still sleeping........

1-2pm
Organic Chemistry Lecture - Attended. Good Boy =).

2-4pm
Principles of Inorganic Physical Chemistry Lecture - Attended half till 3pm then left.

4-5pm
Engineering Mathamatics Lecture - M.I.A. Was Cancelled anyways.

5-6pm
Mass and Energy Balance Lecture - M.I.A. Was Definitely On.

2005-07-31T00:19:00.000+08:00

had to split it up into to again .. so start from the second entry .. aha

hoping there was a pool session but nope .. haha .. anyway .. found myself something to do .. and It was to watch the entire season of Lost .. haha .. really nice show .. =) .. lucky i have the entire season .. muahha .. hmm .. realized haven't been to the movies for quite sometime .. got bit of urge to catch a movie .. any movie ... just got the urge .. hahah .. URGEs ... today is filled with URGEs !! urge urge urge ... even had the urge to sms you but didnt want to bother you .. cause i know you're having fun soo didnt wanna disturb =) ... tml got dragonboat .. dono if i can go ... and i dont think i'm going out either ... boringgg .. ohh ya realized something .. my elder sis is coming back from bangkok tml .. means dinner at airport .. haha soo i have something on after all =)

2005-07-31T00:18:00.000+08:00

from this entry onwards ... i'm opening microsoft words ... then i'm gonna copy my entry every single time i decide to update my blog and paste It into words ... sooo .. if the webbie fails me again ... i can copy it back ... soooo my dearr internet ... u cant get to me .. whahahha .. talking to the internet ?? lol ... ok .. today was B O R I N G !!! ... dead BORING !!! ... figure staying at home almost the whole day .. except going out for lunch and dinner with my family ... stay at home and do what ?? dota ... dota ... dota ... zzzzzz .. it gets realllllyy .. REALLLYYY .. boring after sometime .. and i had the URGE to go out .. whether be it shopping .. pool .. eat .. whatever .. just felt like going out .... had the chance to around 6+ .. carbison asked me whether i wanted to go espanade to meed yuling and her classmates to watch fireworks .. wasn't sure whether i should have gonne ... soo ended up not going cause carbison decided not to ... hahah .. both of us couldn't decide soo he went .. ahh don't go lahz .. lol ... was hesitant to go cause i was thinking ... it would probably take us bout an hour + to reach espanade ...by then .. it'll be really packed ... and we may even miss the fireworks .. soo i kinda felt bit pointless to go ?? .. was

2005-07-29T23:51:00.001+08:00

okok i found out why cannot post already .. wahhaha .. entry toooo long .. muahahahha .. soo i cut it up into 2 pieces .. starting from the second one to the first one .. haha

2005-07-29T23:51:00.000+08:00

the lecturer told us there was some technical difficulties and had to cancel the first hour of lecture .. -_-''' .. 1 hour ..... 1 damn hour .... do u know ... i c o u l d h a v e w o k e u p a n h o u r l a t e r!!!!! ... waste of my t i m e ... lecture from 8-12 ... wooo fun ... my *** ... boring like shiet ... wahhahaha ... then had break from 12-2 ... thank you soo much for it ... wahhaha ... then had tutorial from 2-6 ... -_-''' how funn !??!?! zzzzzzzzzzzz..... almost slept throughout .. lucky the second last lecture was hilarious ... entire class was laughing and doing lame stuff ... even the lecturer laughed along .. wahhahah ... that definitely woke me up ... lol ... after that .. called some friends to check where they were ... cause almost ALL of my close friends lessons end at 1 on fridays ... -_-'' ... allen asked me to go for his cousin's bbq .. felt odd and since not much people went .. sooo .. nooppee ... wahaha .. went to the bball court to meet the 5a class girls ... waiteed there with my classmate till my parents came to fetch me for dinner ...slept in the car ... WAHHAHAHAHA .... i'm gonna copy my entire draft bfore i publish man ... course if something happens .. i promise .. i'll ........ lets not go there =) ... wahhahahah ... anyway ... you know ... you brightened up my day by calling me ... cause before that .. i was dam n bloody bored ... staring into the com aimlessly ... soo thank you !! =) ... wahhaha ... i'm not mad btw ... cause insane people would'nt know their insane .. and would'nt think sooo ... soo i say i'm insane but i'm acutally not insane .. get it?? =) dont get it ?? call me ... i'll make darn sure u get it =) .. wahahha ...my whole body is ACHING ... massage me ?? =X whahahahhahahhahah ... i'm MAD !!! muahahha ... ok ... i'm alright now ... that was soo much funn ... felt like iwas talking to myself .. WAHHAHA .... corrine may - save me is F a N t a S t i C .. hahaha ... Heaven knows that i've fallen ... For you, My sweet embrace ... Heaven knows .. Heaven knows I've been waiting for you .. =)

2005-07-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

wtf !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i jsut wrote like a darn long entry and it failed ... -_-''''!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! .. arggggggggggggggggggggggggggg ..... -_-'' seriously ... -_-'' .. okok .. relax ... i'm not gonna let this thing get to me ... i'm fine .. i'm fine ... ...... yes ...... i'm complete ................................................ GOING INSANE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ................... nevermind ... its alright ... =) .. free my mind ... breath in .... breath out ... in ... out ... and ............ SMASH THE DAMN COMPUTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lmao !!! i'm crazy already ... having fun ?? wahhahaha ... ooooooooooooooooooooookkkkkkkkkkkkkkk ..... leme see what i did todayyyyyy ... yup .. today .. its a friday ...in case u didnt know .. its the fifth day of the weekday ... 29th of july 2005 ... and in case you didnt know .. 29 is a number .. july is the 7th month of the year ... and 2005 represents the year ... if u dono what year is ... G O C H E C K T H E D I C T I O N A R Y !!!! .. =) ... they dont print the darn book for fun ..?!?!? they dont print it cause they want to waste ink and paper ... they printed it for YOUR SAKE ... soo look it up ... =) .. and if u dono what a dictionary is ... please move your cursor to the box with and X inside of it .. its at the top right of your monitor ... then click it .. =) ... wahhaha ... i'm nuts .. okokokokokokokok ... today ... i woke up at 7 am ... and made it to school for a 8 am lesson ... but guess what ??? .... i'm waiting .. guessed already ?? ok .. i'll give you another 10 seconds ........... la di da di da .... ahh screw u .. =P ... it was late .. wahahha .. reached the LT at 8.15 ... muahahah ... but guess what again .. ?? the lecture haven't even started -_-'' .... waited till bout 8.25 ...

2005-07-29T00:28:00.000+08:00

woke up late today .. put alarm at 10 .. ended up waking up at 1+ ... went dragon boat training after lessons ... then dinner .. reached home around 11.30 ... hmm ... now i'm not really in the mood to blog ..... thinking that maybe i should'nt have ... dono ... maybe i'm just thinking too much ....

2005-07-26T23:05:00.000+08:00

hahha ... got forced into updating my blog earlier .. =X ... hmmm .. leme see .. today woke up very early .. around 6.45 .. took my half an hour to shower .. the warm water is just soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo shiok espacially since it was rainning really heavily and the weather was cold .. haha ... had my jacket on the whole day today man .. really cool weather .. haha .. made it early for this morning's lecture .. FOR THE FIRST TIME .. EVERR .. nvr really made it on time for this lecture .. jsut too early for me .. whahaha .. anyway ... gave morning call .. then had maths tutorial .. had a surprise maths quiz .. but not soo bad .. thought i wouldnt be able to do .. after a while got the hang of it .. haha .. ended maths early .. ended apel tutorial in 5 mins .. hows that ?? lol .. after that went for lunch had headed to the library ... that was around 11 i think ... hmm .. sat at the usual area .. after a while ... the area became quite packed ... haha .. i realized all the people around the other tables all i know .. wahahha ... got chemical engineering first year and second year girls ... then got a group of mechatronic guys .. allen's classmates but i know them as well .. opposite me was biomedical students ... know most of them as well .. behind me was calista and lala i think .. haha biomed students as well .. pretty much knew everyone around me .. haha allen came later .. couldnt study once he came .. hahah ended up talking crap and blah blah blah ... didnt do much work ... skipped 2pm maths lecture cause i've learnt differenciation already .. soo no point .. left the library around 2.30 .. shared a taxi with my classmate to simei .. he went to meet his gf so i just kinda hitch a ride till then .. walked home from there .... ahhaha .. came back home .. literally flopped onto the bed ... slept awhile ... till my parents came back ... then here i am now .. don't know how to do MEB tutorial .. difficult .. forget it man .. whahha ... tml tutorial then ask ..

if only ... if only i know what you're thinking ... if only you know ... if only i could ... if only ... there just too many "if only"s ... =)

2005-07-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna sleep early tonight .. soo darn tired ..... soo gonna make this quick .. woke up 8+ .. met someone .. went np .. met danial .. saw daphanie .. singapore idol .. kiatbeng came .. met us .. went lunch .. canteen 2 .. np library .. bubble tea .. slack .. left np 1+ .. dunman sec .. collect cert .. kiatbeng house .. my house .. kiatbeng borrow bike .. allen came .. after left .. almost fell a sleep .. mps(meet-the-people-session) .. type letters .. as usual .. ended up .. doing tutorial .. shag .. sleepy .. off .. to .. bed .. i .. go .. short .. sweet .. simple ..

i really wonder what u're thinking .. if only .....

2005-07-24T02:46:00.000+08:00

i'm literally stoning every now and then .. lol .. anyway .. went to swensen to have lunch with my mom n allen n kan yan .. after that .. headed to queensway ... walk around the bloody mall at least 10 times .. see the same shop over and over .. hahah .. quite sleepy somemore .. saw a few shirts not bad but .. dont quite like the idea of buying cheap clothing from queensway ... hahah .. saw sarah and samantha .. i think that's her name if i'm not wrong .. hahah .. saw wan ling also .. lol .. ohh ya .. saw melissa also .. think she's the neon's HGL .. saw N code badminton racket .. all pure white .. damn nice .. $129.90 .. also nice =) .. haha .. never bought a badminton racket from a stall before .. soo .. i dont think i'm getting it .. ahah ..got forced into going bishan junction 8 .. was thinking of going town instead buttt .. noooooooooooo.... the slut wanna go junction 8 .. anyway .. had ajisen for dinner .. walked around till 8+ .. then the slut force me go taka .. -_-'' ... went for a drink at coffee bean .. i just love this kinda stuff .. chilling .. drinking ... talking rubbish .. a live band was the only thing needed to complete the picture .. haha .. headed home around 10+ 11 .. if i could rearrange the alphabats .. i'll put u and i together ... hahah .. suddenly just thought of it .. lol .. cool pickup line ..

2005-07-23T02:18:00.000+08:00

didnt blog yesterday .. too tired to do so .. had lessons from 8am-6pm .. fun ?? .. woke up around 7.55 .. so decided to skip the first half of the lecture and go in during break time .. damn long day .. sleepy .. tired .. could not absorb much .. but somehow .. i felt better later on .. lol .. in fact . quite high .. anyways ... got back communication skills paper .. got 19.5/25 .. pretty pleased with it .. during my 12-2 break .. went to library after lunch .. met my friend after i came out of the lift .. saw her call me from the inside of the other lift .. door was closing onto out conversation .. soo it was like halfway .. after we left the library .. same thing happened .. -_-''' .. lift closed in onto my other friend while we were talking .. lol ... put a fire extinguisher into my friends bag before leaving the library .. hahahhahah ... he didnt know what we were up to until he carried his bag up .. hahah the expression on his face damn hilarious ... haha ... deciding whether i should take up some research project .. very time consuming .. not confirm will get selected .. hmmm .. i really dono what to think anymore ... is all hope lost ? maybe ...... well off to bed .. probably going queenstown tml ...

2005-07-21T01:11:00.000+08:00

screwww thisss!!! missed this morning's pipc lab .. argg!!! woke up late cause my darn alarm clocks .. mind you .. clockSSSSSS .. didnt ring .. -_-'' i think i accidentally hit my bottle and it fell onto the alarm clock .. sorta knocking it out .. haha .. kinda afraid i'll lose alot of marks just cause i didnt go for it .. cause every lab lesson i think there are marks allocated .. but i think it aint that much .. hopefully .... pretty paranoid over it initially but hell .. screw it!! .. dont wanna started thinking too much again .. hmmm ... in the end to school for the MEB tutorial only .. had to take a cab down to make on time .. late as usual .. ahha i think its in my blood to be late ... really .. haha ... got back my MEB term test .. pretty ok with the results .. got 41 half/50 ... supposed to play pool after that .. in the end .. didnt .. slack in the library for a while before heading home ... then decided to go for dragonboat .. and waddya know .. quite fun .. except for the running part .. haha ... while doing the ending part of the training i was laughing my a** off till got quite high .. most of us did .. hahah .. hmmmmmmmm.... been thinking ... thinking of why i think bout it .. thinking of what i'm actually thinking of .. but thinking of it will make me think alot ..soo i'm kinda thinking whether i should think that much by thinking of it .. leme think ... hmmm .. ok lame!!! lol .. i'm out ..

yes .. i still am thinking of you .. =) ..

2005-07-20T01:12:00.000+08:00

today's sch was from 8-12 then 2-4 ... skipped the 8-9 lecture .. lazy to wake up .. haha ..then went for maths tutorial .. got back my maths term test result .. pretty pleased with it .. =) .. got 48/50 .. n the maths lecturer just dont wanna give me another mark .. i wrote this .. log (base50/53) 1.9780 = 1.99999 ... something like tat .. he put an arrow there and quoted "how?" haha .. purposely dowan to give me the marks .. just cuz he feels too high already .. -_-'' .. he said he gave me the mark initially.. but some idiot did the same way .. and got the answer wrong .. so he didnt know if i copy one or guess one .. -_-''!!!! .. ahha what a lame excuse ... but alright lahz .. haah ... maths tutorial ended an hr early .. then we asked our APEL lecturer to bring it forward soo we dont have tot waste time .. finished that lesson in half an hours time .. was bout 11.30 .. maths lecturer said a maths student can skip maths lecture from 2-4 .. cause he wouldnt be teaching anything new .. wanted to skip but my classmate ask me stay awhile cause he wanna ask something .. soo we left the theater around 2.20 ? shared cab with 2 of my friends .. cause it was raining darn heavy .. hahha ... tml got lab and think will get back my MEB paper .. got dragon boat training somemore .. dono whether i wanna go .. wahhaha .. ok lahz ... shane .. out !

the usual =)

2005-07-19T00:58:00.000+08:00

hahha .. fine lahz .. i dont bully .. muAHah ... slept at 6am last night .. thinking there was no school the next day .... but .............. there was damn lab lesson... ended up waking up at 11+ .. upstairs people drilling .. downstairs people drilling ... void deck people building stuff ... phone ringing ... how to not wake up ?? damn irritated this morning .. drill drill drill ... lucky i'm not doing design and technology anymore .. if not ..... i'll make sure no one .. and i mean NO ONE uses the drill in front of me ... unless somebody think's his or her life is too long .. =) .. meb lab ended early ... went for lunch at mensa around 2+ .. soo damn shiok .. the canteen was almost empty .. the weather was FANTASTIC ... what more can i ask for ?? ahha .. great lunch .. just love empty and clean;) canteens .. my classmates came over for a while ... one of them ran around the entire house to get away from my youngest dog .. HAHAH!!! .. skipped dragonboat today .. again ..... to rest .. haha .. dreading sch ... think mayb i'm gonna skip tml morning's lecture and attend the maths one ... lol .. just too early for me lmao .. feel like i'm writing a compo .. soo long .. hahah ..

since its needless to say .. need i say more ?? =)

2005-07-18T04:48:00.000+08:00

its like 4.50 in the morning ?? lol ... no school .. which is great .. kinda hopin for another week of hoilday butt ... nope .. there aint anymore .. haiz.. headache almost whole day today .. car sick + irritatin hair = tremendous headache !!! hahha .. dotaed with ray n car till now .. crazy .. freakin tired .. didnt go for dragonboat btw .. lol .. n later on still got .. wth .. hmmm .. contemplate again .. hahah ..

its needless to say .. s t i l l o n m y m i n d .. =)

2005-07-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

hahhah ... no matter what .. i still feel i've lost bit of my manhood blogging .. HAHA!! .. anyway ... last night bbq was alrite i guess .. kang yan came back from US to do NS .. LOL =P .. winning eleven NHL burnout 3 till next morning ... didnt slp .. drank quite abit of vodka ... loll .. came back home .. slept till around 4 in the afternoon ... went to cut hair .. soooo shortt .. look weird .. anyway was sick of havin soo much hair .. when i dont cut .. i feel its too long .. when i cut .. i feel its too short .. cant get it in the middle .. ****!!!! .. lol .. but **** it .. who gives a sh*t rite ?? lol ..... tml morning got dragon boat at kallang in the morning .. contemplating whether i wanna go .. hmmm ...... always on my mind =)

2005-07-15T02:30:00.000+08:00

lmao ... today dragon boat training damn fun ... lol ... u guys wanna do 15 or 50 pumping ?? .. guys answer .. 50!! ... v cap says .. nvm lahz .. we do 15 .. easier .... one of the guys goes .. confirm o..n..e..1..t..w..o..2 .. v cap heard n goes .. wahh good idea lahz !! .. lol ... wthh!!?!? ... then when reach thirteen not long lorz ... hahhaha !! anyway .. quite fun lahz .. and this morning some baichi couldnt get up =X .. haha .. sry your highness in advance .. LOL .. todae didnt go for picnic and xeon dinner .. like no one go .. lol.. but fantastic four damn funny lahz .. HAHAH... "where;s ur ears?" rofl !! .. slack at starbucks after tat till bout 11+ .. lol .... i still feel doin blog like a bit girlyy .. blogs in my mind = females only .. hahaha .... buut screww it .... i..am..still..thinking..of..you =)..get..it..??..you..yes..you!!..=)

2005-07-14T00:51:00.000+08:00

dragon boat training again tml morning .. or should i say .. later on... lol ... dono whether wanna go .. see can wake up first .. haha .. then after that got picnic with the camp people ... evening time going over to cc's house ... what a packed day ... too bad no chalet in the end .. sad .. lol ..

i'm still thinking of you ... =) ... and i guess .. i'll wait for you instead of waiting for the feeling to fade =) ...

2005-07-13T13:55:00.000+08:00

added music .. =) ...and i just wanna let you know ... you are still on my mind =)

2005-07-12T20:28:00.000+08:00

i really haven't been myself lately ... its cause of you .......you have such a huge impact on me .. and for the first time i've been willing to take blow and bite the bullet... i've been thinking deeply almost every second of each day .... i think i gotta let something out of this endless train before it goes crashing .... i know that you know i'm referring to you .. its just too obvious .. but i'm just not ready to tell you .. or should i say ... i don't even know whether i'll ever be ready ... i don't expect anything from you ... cause i know you don't have any of those feelings for me ...soo i just need you to hear me out .. i don't want you to feel bad cause of this ... its not your fault .. its rather mine .... i just had to fall for someone who has already locked someone in her heart and thrown away the key ..... soo i don't want you to feel guilty .. cause i wanna thank you instead ... i wanna thank you for letting me experience this feeling which i have nvr felt before ... i wanna thank you for giving me spirit ... i wanna thank you for changing me ....... =) ....i've thought of a million things i wanna put down .. but right now ... my minds' blank ... completely empty .. soo for now .. i guess i'll have to let this feeling fade away =) .... you on the other hand .. please don't let this affect you .. cause you've been through alot lately ...

2005-07-12T19:39:00.000+08:00

had dragon boat training this morning ..... had to run the entire bedok resorvior ... but ssurprisingly .. i was able to complete it with much ease ... cuz throughout the whole run .. i was thinking ....... thinking of whether i should let you knoe ... thinking of what i would want to say ... thinking of how you would feel ... my train of thoughts is just endless ... but i feel this train is coming to a wreakage soon .......

2005-07-11T23:53:00.000+08:00

i created a blog .. -_-''

somethings wrong with me ... for the past few days i haven't been myself ... seriously ...........................

the templates pretty suckyy .. got some errors .. anyway this template is just temporary while i work on my own layout ..... its 2am in the morning n i gotta get up early the next day .. will add some stuff on this template tml .....